You Are Loved. .

My Grandpa had to go to the hospital over the weekend for his heart. They thought they were just going to be a pacemaker in, but today we got more bad news. He has to have quadruple bypass surgery, and then dialysis for his kidney’s. They aren’t going to do it tomorrow, they are going to wait and do it Wednesday. Please Please pray for him. I know God can take care of it, I just wanted to request prayer if you are a prayer warrior!

Thank you!

Is there anybody currently in a Pentecostal Bible college? Such as, Indiana Bible College, Gateway College of Evangelism, or Texas Bible College? Can you tell me your experiences, or what you’re thoughts are toward them?

Lately, my mind is been a jumbled, I’m not going to say mess, because I know what I’m thinking, and it’s all pretty positive, just a lot to think about!

So, on one hand, church has been wonderful. After the service I talked about on here, I’ve been thinking a lot, and I’ve just really thought more on how, I don’t want anything else in this world but God. For a long time, I’ve been stuck on this one guy, and lately he’s just been in the back of my mind..I’ve stopped thinking about him in a way, of feelings for him, there slowly just going away. And that’s a very good thing for me, because we have two different thought processes, and we’re different. He’s got this thought process on kind of, other girls, friends that he’s around, and the way he talks, it’s just different, and he’s changing, and I hate that. Because I feel like he could get so much more in life, so hopefully that will change for him. But, my thought continually has been, in order for me to even have any sort of love relationship, I have to be content with me. I have to be content with myself, and my relationship with God. Because only then will I be able to love someone else, and let someone else love me. So, I’m content, and i’m working on my relationship with God! It’s great. 

Also, my Mom came to church this past Sunday night, she surprised me! She prayed and sought after God, and it was just so amazing. Hopefully, and I KNOW she will receive the Holy Ghost pretty soon:) I also got to pray with a young girl, she’s about 13, she’s had a rough life. She’s gone through a lot of things, and I know she gets picked on at school. She’s been very kind of in the background, she puts on the touch front. She says she hates church, yet she still comes. But Sunday night, she prayed, and cried, and I prayed with her, along with others, but you could just see the desperation on her face, and it just hit me. I told her afterwards, that I am always here when she needs someone to talk to. She will be in my prayers, very specially because I feel like she needs God in her life, and I pray that she can trust with everything she’s got!

College update:

I have decided on Middle School Education, English teacher, with a minor in Social Studies. I will be finishing up my basics this next semester. But, I have really felt strongly about Bible College for a long time. So, before I start on finishing up my major choice, I am going to try to go. So, I compared a few, and the prices, and what they offer, and I will be in the process saving up some money, and hopefully I may be able to get some of the scholarships they offer. But, it’s not too much, so if I have to take out a loan and pay it back over the years. My goal is to maybe try to start this next year, if not spring semester, then the fall. But, it’s a definite that I will be TRYING to do it!! I want more of God!! I want to expand, I want to get out, and I want to gain friendships, and more knowledge on what God wants me to be.

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I have to update you guys on my weekend. I’ve been really sick, with this crazy cough and I can’t seem to get over it, but I’m starting to feel better now, so hopefully it’s going away. But, last night I went to church with my Grandma and some friends about 40 minutes from where we live.

The service was AMAZING. The presence of God was so strong in that building. Young people were worshiping God, dancing, running, jumping, shouting, it was amazing. It’s the most amazing feeling in the whole entire world. There is nothing, and I promise you, NOTHING that could be better than this. I’m positive.

The guy leading the service was talking and I can’t even remember what he was talking about at that moment, because we had just been singing and talking about just worshiping God and how he can bring you out of anything. 

All the sudden, as it was really crowded in the front, and everybody was gathered around praying, a girl, she looked about 14 or 15, she ran through, pushing people out of the way, jumped up on the platform, grab the preacher’s hand and pushed it to her forehead for him to pray for her, people ran to the front, surrounding her and you could see, in just a matter of minutes, the Holy Ghost fell on her! And it hit the whole building! She spoke in other tongues, and people continued to pray. I mean, WOW.

I had never witnessed that happening before. I can’t get it out of my head. That girl, she was so hungry for change, so hungry for her life to be different, I have no idea what her story is. I have no idea what she’s going through, but she decided, enough is enough and she wanted out of it. She needed God and she was going to get him! I just, I mean, speechless.

How would our lives be if we woke up each day in that thought process? If we were so hungry for God every day we woke up, instead of facebook, and stuff. So hungry for God, who cares if we need to skip a meal and pray, IT’S GOD! So hungry for God, we forget about our little issues, and trying to fit in with our friends, GOD is bigger than all that. God is here for us. We have to get hungry. 

Nothing will change, if we don’t get hungry. Our community, our friends, our family will not be won to God, if we don’t get hungry!

Are there any more Pentecostal people on here that I haven’t gotten to know yet or haven’t followed??

For waking me up today! 

For allowing me to breathe!

For allowing me to be able to move!

So that I can thank you for everything that you’ve done for me.

So that I can look at this beautiful day, and think WOW! My God is AWESOME!

If you haven’t said thank you yet, DO IT! It puts your whole day in perspective!

So, I’ve thought a lot about my future for a couple months now. I’m in college, but it seems like I just can’t find anything right now that I want to do, career wise. First it was being a teacher, I took classes, but now I know that’s just not what I want to do. Then, I thought about social work or counseling, but there’s a lot of school that goes into that and plus my values don’t line up with that line of work. I want to help people, but I don’t know with what.

Well, Hope Corps is a missionary training program in the Apostolic church where you take classes for a while and then after classes are over, you go to an area for your mission training and work. My cousin did this, and one of her friends and a large group of young people from her church are going this year. That has been on my heart so much lately. I want to help people find God. I want to draw closer to God, and I believe this will help me do that. If I can change someones life, or at least be in the help of changing their life….I just feel like that’s what I’m meant to do. I feel like once I get back from that, God will lead me where he wants me to go.

This does cost money, but if it’s what God wants me to do, he will provide what I need and opportunities to get what I would need. I still have to get some details about it, but my plan is to take a break from college this fall and start the classes in September. This world needs us, and I want to be there to help them. I want to be whoever God wants me to be and I want to do whatever God wants me to do! I live for him and I long to draw closer!!

Who died for you and me.

Who, through desperation calling out, “Not my will..but thine!”

Whom his FLESH SCREAMED “I DON’T WANT TO DO THIS.”

But, he knew he HAD too. 

He knew it’s what he had to do.

Whom there is NO GREATER SACRIFICE that the one he made for us.

Who takes away our fear and replaces it with courage.

Who takes away our pain and replaces it will comfort.

Who takes away our broken heart and let’s us know he loves us.

Who takes away our sickness and give us healing.

Who is waiting of us to speak his name.

Who wants to help us.

Who replaces our confusion with his guiding hand.

Who replaces our doubt with knowing.

Who will never leave us or forsake us. EVER.

Who is our father.

Who is our shelter.

Who is bigger than anything we face.

Who Loves us.

He loves us.

So much…

*Tonight, as I was praying and singing, I just couldn’t help repeat..”I love you Jesus..” over and over again. Because it’s just what I was feeling. I look back at my life and I could have gone an entire different way. I could have been an entirely different person, but because of God and his everlasting love for me, I’m here today, and I’m in love with my great big God. He’s the one that’s been there for me when nobody else has. He is the one who stands up and holds me when I’ve fallen. He’s the hand that I cling to when all I want to do is fall apart. How can I come to the end of me, and still have all I need? Because of God. God never left me, not once. He loves me. He loves me and he loves you.

I love you God. I love you so much.

Somebody grasp a hold of this in their heart…no matter what you are doing in your life..no matter what you are going through. Please, know that God loves you. Every single one of you..he LOVES you. True love. 

We both have this feeling. We both are wondering and watching and waiting. We see our friends in relationships. We see the happy couples getting married. We see people falling in love everywhere we go. We see people holding hands,looking at each other so lovingly. We both love God with all our hearts and we are trusting him with our life. We want nothing more than to be in his presence. We know he holds our life in his hands. We know that his timing is perfect. We know that there is no need to rush things, but to pray. We long to have that significant other. We pray for each other. But yet, we don’t know we are praying for each other. We want to find each other, yet we don’t know each other..or maybe we do? Maybe we’ve seen each other and maybe we haven’t. But, the point is.. We’re praying for each other. We are going to find our way to each other. We’re going to meet, and it will be the moment that not only we’ve waited for, but God has waited for. He knows our lives and how we’ve lived for him. We’ve had our struggles but we’ve kept the faith. In that moment..we’ll look in each others eyes. No more distance. No more not knowing each other. It’s that moment that God will have out us together.
But for now, we keep praying for each other. We keep trusting God and living the calling he has placed on our lives. Until, we find our way to each other and live our callings together.