Lately, my mind is been a jumbled, I’m not going to say mess, because I know what I’m thinking, and it’s all pretty positive, just a lot to think about!
So, on one hand, church has been wonderful. After the service I talked about on here, I’ve been thinking a lot, and I’ve just really thought more on how, I don’t want anything else in this world but God. For a long time, I’ve been stuck on this one guy, and lately he’s just been in the back of my mind..I’ve stopped thinking about him in a way, of feelings for him, there slowly just going away. And that’s a very good thing for me, because we have two different thought processes, and we’re different. He’s got this thought process on kind of, other girls, friends that he’s around, and the way he talks, it’s just different, and he’s changing, and I hate that. Because I feel like he could get so much more in life, so hopefully that will change for him. But, my thought continually has been, in order for me to even have any sort of love relationship, I have to be content with me. I have to be content with myself, and my relationship with God. Because only then will I be able to love someone else, and let someone else love me. So, I’m content, and i’m working on my relationship with God! It’s great.
Also, my Mom came to church this past Sunday night, she surprised me! She prayed and sought after God, and it was just so amazing. Hopefully, and I KNOW she will receive the Holy Ghost pretty soon:) I also got to pray with a young girl, she’s about 13, she’s had a rough life. She’s gone through a lot of things, and I know she gets picked on at school. She’s been very kind of in the background, she puts on the touch front. She says she hates church, yet she still comes. But Sunday night, she prayed, and cried, and I prayed with her, along with others, but you could just see the desperation on her face, and it just hit me. I told her afterwards, that I am always here when she needs someone to talk to. She will be in my prayers, very specially because I feel like she needs God in her life, and I pray that she can trust with everything she’s got!
I have decided on Middle School Education, English teacher, with a minor in Social Studies. I will be finishing up my basics this next semester. But, I have really felt strongly about Bible College for a long time. So, before I start on finishing up my major choice, I am going to try to go. So, I compared a few, and the prices, and what they offer, and I will be in the process saving up some money, and hopefully I may be able to get some of the scholarships they offer. But, it’s not too much, so if I have to take out a loan and pay it back over the years. My goal is to maybe try to start this next year, if not spring semester, then the fall. But, it’s a definite that I will be TRYING to do it!! I want more of God!! I want to expand, I want to get out, and I want to gain friendships, and more knowledge on what God wants me to be.
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