I haven’t updated in a long time. I’m sorry, I’ve just gotten busy and living life and all that jazz. I’ve wanted to update, but I just wasn’t exactly sure what to say. I have too many thoughts running through my mind!
School and Future:
I’ve decided for this semester, to go ahead and finished my basics, and then maybe I’ll figure out what I want to do. I still want to go on the Missions trip, and take those classes, I just don’t think right now is good. I will know if God pulls me back towards there. I do feel a strong burden for it, so it will be in my future somewhere. I also think that God will help me figure out what I want to do as a career, I just have to help in taking steps towards it, so that’s on my mind a lot too.
Church is wonderful. It’s the best part of my life by far. God is so amazing, I can’t even begin to say all the amazing things he’s doing. I know as a personal journey though, I’ve slacked lately. I haven’t prayed like I should and I get caught up in school and in free time, I don’t pray, I do other things, and I shouldn’t. My goal is to fast and pray this week at least 2 times. If I want things to happen in my life, I have to make an effort, and with God by my side, I WILL! I can do this.
Our pastor told us to write down one person tonight who we will focus on for the rest of the year, to win them to God. I have my person in mind, and I’ve thought about it for a while, and I know God is not done with our situation yet. We didn’t come into each other’s lives just to leave when we have to grow up. I know God has another plan in mind, I feel it. So, that will be the person I focus on.
Me and my dad still aren’t on the best page. He goes out every night, and he talked to be a little while ago about how people want to use him and all this stuff. I think my dad has very low self esteem, the way he talks about himself. So, I’m doing my best to pray and TRY to have a good attitude, which is really hard most of the time. But, God’s got this.
I have decided I am going to spend the night with my grandma, maybe a couple of nights, just to see how it works out, and maybe he’ll realize some things. I really would just like a fresh place to start over. Even if it’s in my grandma’s upstairs. lol. There’s a bathroom, a bedroom, a living room and an extra room up there, and I know I would be comfortable. So, I stayed there Friday night and saturday night, so I’m going to for a few nights coming up too.
God has my life in his hands, and he has the people around me in his hands. He knows what’s best for me. I’m so thankful I have someone to talk to and I know he will always be there, no matter what. My job is to talk to him more, he desires a relationship with me, as I do with him.
Hope you guys have a great Sunday! I’d love to catch up with you, shoot me a message!