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THANK YOU GOD!
For waking me up today!
For allowing me to breathe!
For allowing me to be able to move!
So that I can thank you for everything that you’ve done for me.
So that I can look at this beautiful day, and think WOW! My God is AWESOME!
If you haven’t said thank you yet, DO IT! It puts your whole day in perspective!
We go into the real world, day to day, getting ourselves ready in the morning, putting on our faces as though nothing is wrong. We may look in the mirror, hating what we see, yet, we do that fake smile and go on about our day. We have a life to live, right? We have jobs to do, right? I have to get through this day. Whether we want to except it or not, we get ready in the morning for a reason. We care about our appearance. We edit our photos for a reason, we don’t want people to see our marks. Our blemishes, we have to cover up. People will laugh, right?
We have so many faces throughout the day. We put on our brave face. We put on on our happy face. Do you not look at people around? How many people REALLY look happy, I mean truly. Sometimes, we let people get the best of us. We see ourselves as black or white, we’re either good, or we’re bad. We’re either beautiful, or we’re ugly. We’re either smart, or we’re dumb. We’re either fat, or we’re skinny. We not only let people label us, we label ourselves.
Then, we go home each day, after having our faces blurred, our minds blurred, our sight blurred of ourselves, and we look down. We look down at the ground as we contemplate, “What am I doing?” “Am I really going to make something of myself?” “Am I really smart?” “Am I really beautiful?” “But, today, he told me I was fat.” “But today, he told me I wasn’t good enough.”
Why do we do that? Why do we label ourselves? Why do we look down on this amazing person that God has had in mind even before we were born? Look at our true face. Look at our real face. Yes, I have blemishes, we all do, embrace them. Embrace yourself. Look at yourself in the mirror, and say, “I am beautiful.” “God loves me just the way I am.” That’s all that matter, all that matters.
Before you put on that fake smile in the morning, look in the mirror. It doesn’t have to be fake. You have so much to be happy for. You woke up, you’re alive, and you are beautiful. Just the way you are, no matter what anybody says, anybody. Don’t you ever believe the lies that the devil has told you. Ever.
I have to remind myself of this a lot. I struggle with insecurity, very badly. I’ve had remarks made at me, that I was dumb, that I was stupid, that I was fat, I need to skip a meal or two, I’m ugly.. Yes, it hurt for that moment, and it hasn’t gone away completely, but all that matters to me is God’s opinion. He made me, he has me in the palm of his hands. So, the next time someone has something to say, just smile. You know who you are, I know who I am, I am God’s creation. I am loved by him. I won’t let anything crush me into the ground, I will stand. I will be who God created me to be, myself.
It’s the Sun on a Beautiful Day…
I haven’t updated in a long time. I’m sorry, I’ve just gotten busy and living life and all that jazz. I’ve wanted to update, but I just wasn’t exactly sure what to say. I have too many thoughts running through my mind!
School and Future:
I’ve decided for this semester, to go ahead and finished my basics, and then maybe I’ll figure out what I want to do. I still want to go on the Missions trip, and take those classes, I just don’t think right now is good. I will know if God pulls me back towards there. I do feel a strong burden for it, so it will be in my future somewhere. I also think that God will help me figure out what I want to do as a career, I just have to help in taking steps towards it, so that’s on my mind a lot too.
Church:
Church is wonderful. It’s the best part of my life by far. God is so amazing, I can’t even begin to say all the amazing things he’s doing. I know as a personal journey though, I’ve slacked lately. I haven’t prayed like I should and I get caught up in school and in free time, I don’t pray, I do other things, and I shouldn’t. My goal is to fast and pray this week at least 2 times. If I want things to happen in my life, I have to make an effort, and with God by my side, I WILL! I can do this.
Our pastor told us to write down one person tonight who we will focus on for the rest of the year, to win them to God. I have my person in mind, and I’ve thought about it for a while, and I know God is not done with our situation yet. We didn’t come into each other’s lives just to leave when we have to grow up. I know God has another plan in mind, I feel it. So, that will be the person I focus on.
Home Life:
Me and my dad still aren’t on the best page. He goes out every night, and he talked to be a little while ago about how people want to use him and all this stuff. I think my dad has very low self esteem, the way he talks about himself. So, I’m doing my best to pray and TRY to have a good attitude, which is really hard most of the time. But, God’s got this.
I have decided I am going to spend the night with my grandma, maybe a couple of nights, just to see how it works out, and maybe he’ll realize some things. I really would just like a fresh place to start over. Even if it’s in my grandma’s upstairs. lol. There’s a bathroom, a bedroom, a living room and an extra room up there, and I know I would be comfortable. So, I stayed there Friday night and saturday night, so I’m going to for a few nights coming up too.
God has my life in his hands, and he has the people around me in his hands. He knows what’s best for me. I’m so thankful I have someone to talk to and I know he will always be there, no matter what. My job is to talk to him more, he desires a relationship with me, as I do with him.
Hope you guys have a great Sunday! I’d love to catch up with you, shoot me a message!
Waiting..
That’s what our life consists of right?
Imagine yourself sitting, sitting alone on this bench. What are you waiting for exactly? In a literal view, maybe a friend, or someone to come talk to you, while you sit. But, what about in your mind? You’re sitting on this bench in life..You see the lights in the distance, you see the breeze blowing. So many thoughts going through your mind. You’re waiting for a lot of things. Maybe it’s love, to fall in love. Maybe it’s friendship, to gain friends. Maybe it’s a problem to leave you. Maybe it’s a struggle that you just want gone. We’re sitting on this bench in life and we go through these things..we look around us seeing the happiness in the distance, all the lights shining around us, yet we feel darkness. But, what have we really done about it? We’re not suppose to just wait and say, “Well, God it’s all in your time” and then just go about our daily lives, maybe living for God, maybe not. No. That’s not what God expects of us. You don’t see a way out of that problem do you? Well guess what..God doesn’t either. It’s because you haven’t made your way out of it. You haven’t took the time to make your way out of it. You haven’t took your time to pray for a significant other. You haven’t took the time to pray that God has his hand upon this situation. You haven’t fasted for God to touch your life and the people around you.
So, while you’re sitting on this bench, in life, looking at everyone else, in your own despair, KNEEL. Don’t just sit. Kneel. Get down on your knees and cry out to God. Because believe it or not, most likely what you are going through, what you haven’t really found in your life that you would like„ is a result of a non prayerful life. It’s because you’ve played the waiting game so long that you’re just comfortable with the phrase, “All in God’s timing..” God can’t do anything if you don’t reach out too.
Hey, while you’re kneeling, why don’t you go ahead and thank God for what you see around you. Thank God for that breeze you feel. Thank God for those lights you see. Thank God for those friends you have. Don’t take life for granted. Sure, you go ahead and sit on that bench, you go ahead and wait, but try praying while you do that. Try reaching out to God and REALLY touching him.
After all, life is beautiful, you just need to grasp it. You just need to really cry out to God and say thank you..thank you so much. This life is beautiful, and we couldn’t have been able to live it without God dying on that cross and rising again.
I’ve never gotten flowers from a guy before. I think it would be extremely sweet just to get flowers.
When you feel down, just step outside, and look around you. Life is beautiful. You need only to open your eyes.
*I found this picture and I was thinking how awesome it has to be to be in a plane looking at these clouds, what God created is so beautiful and amazing..*
Insecurities.
There the little things, or well, big things in your own eyes that eat away at you every second of the day. You struggle to keep them away. You don’t want those thoughts in your head, but..you can’t seem to help it. You have people or one person specifically bugging you about your appearance, talking about your weight…and they keep on..and you tell them that it bothers you..but that doesn’t stop them.
The absolutely hate the word fat. It’s ridiculous and it’s not what you should call someone. When someone says some of those mean words to people, they don’t realize that as soon as their said, that person is taking it in, and they’re thinking to themselves, “Wow..they’re right..I need to lose weight. I’m not pretty. I’m not going to get a boyfriend like this. That’s why I don’t have a boyfriend.” It just starts a chain reaction of thoughts..
You can say they don’t bother you, but deep inside, it hurts.
But just remember this, YOU ARE EVERYTHING TO GOD. God looks at you and says, “WOW, I created something special.” There is no one like you. You are loved, you are beautiful. You don’t have to strive to look like those girls in the world. You don’t have to be the most popular one at school You are you, that’s all that matters. Don’t let people’s opinion drown out the voice of God. It’s okay, just hang on. You’re beautiful.
Say it. I AM BEAUTIFUL.
Californiaaaaaaaaa.
