If Life Was Different From Now, Where do I think I’d be?

If life was a total opposite of the way it is now, if I did not believe the way I do, or If I never was introduced to how I am now, though I wouldn’t trade it for anything, please don’t think that’s what I’m saying. I love my life, and I love God and there is nothing that would make me turn my back against him! Just dreaming here..

If I had took a different path in the past, I think I would have already tried to kind of get out of here, if you know what I mean. I’m watching SMASH now, and I’ve thought a lot about what I could have done. I did a play my Senior year of High School, and I LOVED it. I loved acting, and being on the stage, it was AWESOME. Seriously. I think I would be trying to do something like that now. Doing theater..would be a dream to me. It seems like something I could connect to. Being a different person..on that stage..just giving it your all..it would be amazing to me. That would be a great journey. I know I would never do it now, but it’s always in the back of my mind. Either that, or I probably would have already tried to audition for different things, I liked acting, and I also love singing. So, I just have this feelings, if I hadn’t found what I’ve found now, I would be in a different mind set, way different from now. But, it’s a dream.

I love God, and I love my life, I do!! I just wanted to share something I’ve always thought of. Thanks:)

Stressin’ Out.

I’m trying not too, I really am, I just can’t help it. I have 2 papers due wednesday. 2 tests on Wednesday, which we just reviewed for today. I have one big paper due that I really need to get started on, although it’s not due until May 1st. I have an assignment where I have to watch an hour documentary and write a reflection about it due on April 24th. I have an 8 page Sociology paper on breaking a norm due on April 17th. I also have a bonus paper assignment due at the end of april because I need the points for it, because I’m not doing too great in that class.

On top of that, I still have no idea what I want to do with life. Like, career wise. I have ideas..but still need to be sorted.

It’s kind of freaking me out. I’m just thinking of everything in my head and how I don’t have time to do stuff, but just have to make time. I also know that prayer works, and that it will be a main focus in my life with all these thoughts in my head!

God’s got this.

NO NEED TO BE STRESSIN’ WHEN GOD IS ALL ABOUT BLESSIN’

That just came out of nowhere. I don’t even know. I’m so sleepy that I’m like, idk.

And I have to go, bc I need to get hw done.

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The Real Story:

Okay, this is directed to be about the people on the streets. Well, the people who stand and hold signs for a ride, or for money, or food, or anything. This is for the people who come into to churches maybe looking for money, or come into other places asking or looking maybe like they really need something. 

Why do we have so many thoughts already about these people? We just see them with our EYES, and BOOM, all the thoughts come pouring in…“There’s another begger.” “There’s another one of those people just wanting something from people.” “He’s got a dog, he must not be very needy.” “He’s got a bunch of stuff buy him, he must not need much.” “Oh, he has a Mcdonalds bag, he must not be very hungry.” WHY.WHY.WHY.WHY.WHY do we think this way?? Last night, we had a man come in, and he’s been there before, asked for money and never been back until last night. He was talking to our pastor, but I have no idea what the conversation was. Today, my grandma said something that really struck me. She said, and I’m not quoting exactly, but she had a very kind of hateful tone, “Yeah, he’s been there before and asked for money and hasn’t been back till now. He’s probably just wanting gas money or something.” Then, my cousin said he didn’t have a car, he’s walking everywhere. This is where is struck me big time, Grandma replied, “Yeah, he probably just said that and had it parked somewhere else. Probably like those people who hold those signs all the time.” Woah. I admit, my grandma is getting a little older and well, she doesn’t think what come out of her mouth. It just…I don’t know. I said..well you never know what goes on in a persons life. 

Number 1- So that person on the street has a dog, big stinkin’ deal..there is a big chance he found it somewhere? Maybe he had it before his situation arose.

Number 2-So he has a bunch of bags by him. Most likely, he wanted to pack what he could. Maybe he had a little money before, maybe he’s done some jobs, so what if he has some stuff with him, that doesn’t make him able to afford everything in life, that he needs.

Number 3- Same with the food bag, Once again, What if someone gave him that money? Hello?

Number 4- The whole car thing parked somewhere else—-The truth is we don’t know, but my best bet is that is NOT the case. 

The Big Number 5- Guess what? That person that you have all those thoughts about, that person that is waving a sign saying he needs food or he needs a ride, or he needs money, THEY ARE A HUMAN BEING JUST LIKE YOU AND ME. No, we have NO idea what goes on in their life. NO IDEA. True, they may be total con artists. They may just seek to get money for free. So what? They may not NEED that money. So what? If that is the case, well that will come back to them. But, the big thing is most likely that is not the case at all. So many things happen in people’s lives where they can’t afford the necessities  They just can’t. It’s not possible for them. Imagine yourself in their shoes. No, you know nothing about what they’ve gone through, but imagine you’re standing on a corner, hungry, lonely, tired…you just need someone to be there. You need someone to make that gesture that they care. Believe it or not, people don’t have a lot of the things we take for granted everyday. They need you. They need you to just reach out. Give a dollar, it doesn’t even matter what you’re thoughts about them are. Get that out of your head and help someone. What would Jesus do? What would Jesus really do? Think about that.

So, I just really had to get that out. I don’t understand people’s attitudes anymore. We’re put on this earth to reach out, why aren’t we do it? Why are we so stuck on our own little worlds? Nobody knows anybody’s real story. Nobody. We all have thoughts in our mind that NOBODY knows. So, think about that. Think really hard about that.

In the Future:

So, these are random thoughts in my mind for today. I was just thinking about life and all. I just really pray that in the future, I get married, and that I can have my own family. I know God has it all under control. But, I’ve started to pray more about it, I guess just because I’m scared. I know God is preparing me for life, not just for who I’m going to be with, but just for life in general. I also know he’s preparing whoever I am suppose to be with. I just needed to say that, I do want to get married, and I do want to have my own children. It’s a dream of mine!

God’s got this:)

Waiting..
That’s what our life consists of right?
Imagine yourself sitting, sitting alone on this bench. What are you waiting for exactly? In a literal view, maybe a friend, or someone to come talk to you, while you sit. But, what about in your mind? You’re sitting on this bench in life..You see the lights in the distance, you see the breeze blowing. So many thoughts going through your mind. You’re waiting for a lot of things. Maybe it’s love, to fall in love. Maybe it’s friendship, to gain friends. Maybe it’s a problem to leave you. Maybe it’s a struggle that you just want gone. We’re sitting on this bench in life and we go through these things..we look around us seeing the happiness in the distance, all the lights shining around us, yet we feel darkness. But, what have we really done about it? We’re not suppose to just wait and say, “Well, God it’s all in your time” and then just go about our daily lives, maybe living for God, maybe not. No. That’s not what God expects of us. You don’t see a way out of that problem do you? Well guess what..God doesn’t either. It’s because you haven’t made your way out of it. You haven’t took the time to make your way out of it. You haven’t took your time to pray for a significant other. You haven’t took the time to pray that God has his hand upon this situation. You haven’t fasted for God to touch your life and the people around you.
So, while you’re sitting on this bench, in life, looking at everyone else, in your own despair, KNEEL. Don’t just sit. Kneel. Get down on your knees and cry out to God. Because believe it or not, most likely what you are going through, what you haven’t really found in your life that you would like„ is a result of a non prayerful life. It’s because you’ve played the waiting game so long that you’re just comfortable with the phrase, “All in God’s timing..” God can’t do anything if you don’t reach out too. 
Hey, while you’re kneeling, why don’t you go ahead and thank God for what you see around you. Thank God for that breeze you feel. Thank God for those lights you see. Thank God for those friends you have. Don’t take life for granted. Sure, you go ahead and sit on that bench, you go ahead and wait, but try praying while you do that. Try reaching out to God and REALLY touching him. 
After all, life is beautiful, you just need to grasp it. You just need to really cry out to God and say thank you..thank you so much. This life is beautiful, and we couldn’t have been able to live it without God dying on that cross and rising again.

Waiting..

That’s what our life consists of right?

Imagine yourself sitting, sitting alone on this bench. What are you waiting for exactly? In a literal view, maybe a friend, or someone to come talk to you, while you sit. But, what about in your mind? You’re sitting on this bench in life..You see the lights in the distance, you see the breeze blowing. So many thoughts going through your mind. You’re waiting for a lot of things. Maybe it’s love, to fall in love. Maybe it’s friendship, to gain friends. Maybe it’s a problem to leave you. Maybe it’s a struggle that you just want gone. We’re sitting on this bench in life and we go through these things..we look around us seeing the happiness in the distance, all the lights shining around us, yet we feel darkness. But, what have we really done about it? We’re not suppose to just wait and say, “Well, God it’s all in your time” and then just go about our daily lives, maybe living for God, maybe not. No. That’s not what God expects of us. You don’t see a way out of that problem do you? Well guess what..God doesn’t either. It’s because you haven’t made your way out of it. You haven’t took the time to make your way out of it. You haven’t took your time to pray for a significant other. You haven’t took the time to pray that God has his hand upon this situation. You haven’t fasted for God to touch your life and the people around you.

So, while you’re sitting on this bench, in life, looking at everyone else, in your own despair, KNEEL. Don’t just sit. Kneel. Get down on your knees and cry out to God. Because believe it or not, most likely what you are going through, what you haven’t really found in your life that you would like„ is a result of a non prayerful life. It’s because you’ve played the waiting game so long that you’re just comfortable with the phrase, “All in God’s timing..” God can’t do anything if you don’t reach out too. 

Hey, while you’re kneeling, why don’t you go ahead and thank God for what you see around you. Thank God for that breeze you feel. Thank God for those lights you see. Thank God for those friends you have. Don’t take life for granted. Sure, you go ahead and sit on that bench, you go ahead and wait, but try praying while you do that. Try reaching out to God and REALLY touching him. 

After all, life is beautiful, you just need to grasp it. You just need to really cry out to God and say thank you..thank you so much. This life is beautiful, and we couldn’t have been able to live it without God dying on that cross and rising again.

First My Life in A Post:

Okay, hey wonderful people! You guys are SUPER AWESOME! Thank you to all my new followers, I’m going to work on checking your blogs out! Promise! 

This week has been..*ehhh..* On a good note, I’ve walked 4 days this week, and it’s made me feel great! I’ve also lessened down on my portions, so trying to get healthy;) Another good note, spring break is this coming up week!!! NO CLASS! yesss.

God is working in my life, I can feel it. My thoughts have been changed around, I’ve learned to trust him with everything. Relationship wise, I got some news earlier this week about the guy I’ve like forever, his uncle talked to him about why he is missing a chance on being with a girl like me, and why he’s chasing all the other girls that he doesn’t need. He was smiling the whole time, but his problem is that he is “popular” when he dates those girls. So, what his feelings really are for me I have no idea. I tried not to get my hopes up, but in a way I did..and yesterday and today I saw things on twitter and facebook that really just didn’t make me happy. He was in a picture with the girl..and then she was saying he’s a sweetheart and a cutie and he said one of his followers is perfect. Anyway, that was a big bomb on my mood. I wish I could get over him, if he’s not the one I”m suppose to be with..but God’s Got This! 

Life wise, I’ve really thought about Hope Corps, it’s something I know I need to do, but then I get to thinking about it and I’m like..”I can’t do that..” I don’t know if it’s just so big and I feel like I can’t accomplish it..or what. It also is probably the Devil. But, I’m keeping my head on, and praying, and praying that God leads me.

Friendship wise, Me and my best friend are talking more, keeping schedules and all!!! I have no idea what I’d do without her. No idea. I pray that God leads us both in life, and keeps us close. God has our life mapped out! Whatever his will!!

Well, I guess that’s just about it…I’m still up to answering questions and talk if anyone wants to message me!! Also, if you want me to write about something feel free to ask me!!! 

Love ya’ll! God bless you!!

 

My Weekly Schedule:

Monday: School from 8 till 4:45 and get home at about 5:30. Get children’s church lesson planned. Supper.

Tuesday: babysit from 7:50 till 4:45. Home, do homework, go over lesson again.

Wednesday: School from 8 till 4:45 again. During lunch break go get whats needed for church.Home at 5:30, church at 6:30.

Thursday: Babysit from 7:50 to 4:45 again. Work on any homework, prayer meeting at 6.

Friday: Babysit same time as above. Then maybe clean the dentist clinic with my grandma. Depending on when we clean, is when my free night is.

Saturday: Mostly free day besides if we didn’t clean on Friday, then we clean Saturday. And this day is a do nothing day, hang with friends and chill out if possible!

Sunday: CHURCH!

But, this week coming up is spring break so all I have worry about is getting a children’s church lesson ready and babysitting on Tuesday, Thursday and Friday.

And now I take a big breathe from that long schedule. It just goes to show how much people grow up and how fast it seemed like it happened. One minute I was carefree an hanging with my friends and the next minute we’re all busy and we have jobs and we can’t help growing up. It’s hard.

I think it would be cool just to have one day and one night dedicated to being “non-adult” again.. If that makes sense. Watch High School Musical, eat popcorn and sweets, and act like crazy kids like we used to be.

Oh life…

Living a Life Full of God:

So, I’ve thought a lot about my future for a couple months now. I’m in college, but it seems like I just can’t find anything right now that I want to do, career wise. First it was being a teacher, I took classes, but now I know that’s just not what I want to do. Then, I thought about social work or counseling, but there’s a lot of school that goes into that and plus my values don’t line up with that line of work. I want to help people, but I don’t know with what.

Well, Hope Corps is a missionary training program in the Apostolic church where you take classes for a while and then after classes are over, you go to an area for your mission training and work. My cousin did this, and one of her friends and a large group of young people from her church are going this year. That has been on my heart so much lately. I want to help people find God. I want to draw closer to God, and I believe this will help me do that. If I can change someones life, or at least be in the help of changing their life….I just feel like that’s what I’m meant to do. I feel like once I get back from that, God will lead me where he wants me to go.

This does cost money, but if it’s what God wants me to do, he will provide what I need and opportunities to get what I would need. I still have to get some details about it, but my plan is to take a break from college this fall and start the classes in September. This world needs us, and I want to be there to help them. I want to be whoever God wants me to be and I want to do whatever God wants me to do! I live for him and I long to draw closer!!

As a child of God, our job is to be a light to the world. Keep the smile on your face. Keep the hope in your heart. Keep the desperation for the lost souls in your mind. Don’t give up on anybody. Don’t pass anyone up. Take them by the hand, pray with them. Help them. Guide them. Inspire them. Make sure they know why you are smiling. It’s because the same God that helps you day to day, can easily help them as well. Inspire. Help. Live.

As a child of God, our job is to be a light to the world. Keep the smile on your face. Keep the hope in your heart. Keep the desperation for the lost souls in your mind. Don’t give up on anybody. Don’t pass anyone up. Take them by the hand, pray with them. Help them. Guide them. Inspire them. Make sure they know why you are smiling. It’s because the same God that helps you day to day, can easily help them as well. Inspire. Help. Live.

love the words.

love the words.