It’s the times of complete and utter silliness in life that I realize how awesome life really is. It’s the splitting of the rib cage, not being able to breathe, thinking you’re just going to pass out because you literally can’t stop laughing times that really make me appreciate life.
Then it’s the times, the simple times, stepping out into nature, looking around at the trees and the sky at how beautiful life really is and thinking to yourself..”God….this is just amazing.”
Maybe I didn’t get every moment on camera, but I didn’t need to. Because, I have those memories, I know how I felt. I get home, and I just have to look up at God, and whisper..”I Love You.” Because..I can’t say it loudly, because it comes out in a cry. Not a cry of sadness, but a cry of just how amazing God is.
~~~~~~~~~Some Personal thoughts:
My Dad has been out every night this week very late, at a bar. He doesn’t come home until 3 in the morning, we haven’t talked or had a conversation, he’s been short with me, and I don’t exactly know how to take it anymore. I don’t know whats happening with us, but I think God is giving me this alone time for a reason, and possibly him too. It hurts, when he talks to me like he just really doesn’t want to talk to me at all, he could have so many other things to do in life that have a conversation with me. But, it’s the times when he is home, the times we can say one thing to each other, and laugh about it, or something random.
I heard somebody say the other day, A relationship between a daughter and a father is one like no other. I see girls with their fathers all the time..I don’t have that relationship with my dad anymore. I don’t get to see my mom often. I’m not ranting, or making people feel sorry for me, I’m just thinking out loud..to say..God has a reason for everything.
It’s all going to come together in the end. It’s all going to be okay. But when I have those moments where I cry, and I wonder why is this happening…It’s the other moments, the breath taking laughter moments, that take it all away. How blessed I really am. It’s the moments where I can connect and talk with my best friend about everything. It’s the real moments, that I’m so, so so very thankful for. I have no, no idea what or where I’d be without those moments.