I realize that God has a plan for me. I want to always keep that in my mind. If I ever start to forget it and take my life into my own hands, I want to be quickened, “God’s Got This.”
There are so many things I’d love to do. So many things I long for. Just to see what it’s like, You know? I want to jump off of a cliff, maybe not very big, I just want to jump into the water, and feel the freedom. The weightlessness until you fall into the water. I want surfing lessons one day. I’m terribly afraid of sharks, but I want that feeling. I want to try. Be in the water, catch the waves. I may be terrible at it, but I want to have that experience. I want to have a wedding, I want to fall madly, deeply in love with the man of my dreams. I want to have a life that God has dreamed of for me. I long for that. I want to sit in a cafe, and watch the rain fall. I’d love this in the city, watch the cars go by, while drinking coffee, or something. Peaceful, but busy. I want to stay in a fancy hotel, once in my life. Just once. With friends would be awesome, just one crazy, fun night in an amazing hotel.
I want to look at myself the way God sees me. I deserve love, and nothing less.